Thursday, June 30, 2011


On the 8th of July I will get a breast augmentation surgery.
I am very anxious and somewhat scared.
I am not looking forward to the pain, but I know that I will be very happy once the healing process is finished.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

I should be silenced.

I hate it when I am attacked and belittled by those who do not agree with me.
I have NEVER made a personal attack on anyone in the TS/TG argument.
I have argued the points and stood my ground but I have never made it personal.
There have been cases where some others have made it personal and have attacked me. I am not going to link anything to demonstrate. The main attaker is in my opinion likely from an abusive family where verbal assualt and social attacks were comon place.

The saddest part to me is that I ussed to really like the person who hates me.

Do I say things that I regret on occasion?
I am human, I am prone to sticking my foot in my mouth. I also have been known to change my opinion and modify my beliefs, thereby making something I have said in the past of non consequence.
And sometimes I will talk allot of shit just too simply piss someone off because I know it pushes someones buttons.

I do cringe when someone takes the time to quote me but I own my shit.
However, I do not like it when I get lied about, words put in my mouth and outright lies posted about me and directly quoting me when I said nothing.

Like I said in the past, just wait, I will say something stupid. You do not have too lie about me just to make me look bad.

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Spearmint for hair reduction.

Spearmint tea is a great addition to the arsenal of the transitioning woman. Spearmint has a chemical in it that has anti androgenic properties. Mainly it acts on the follicles of the facial and body hair, interrupting the androgen receptors in the follicle that would signal the need to produce hair when testosterone is present. It does not interfere with the hair on your head, which is a big bonus to many of us trans women. (me included!)
For centuries women have used spearmint to combat unwanted body hair. Turkish researchers have confirmed that the stuff works.
Trans women can add spearmint to their regimen of HRT without fear of side effects and it is rather effective. I have used spearmint tea to great effect. Prior to drinking the tea I was on estrogen and anti androgens but my body hair had only responded in a minor way. I was rather upset as I would shave 2 times a day and I couldn’t keep up with the hair. Then I read about spearmint and I was intrigued. After procuring a pound of bulk spearmint for about $15 USD I started to drink a quart of tea a day. I would drink half in the morning and half in the evening. It took about a month to notice any results but eventually I started to see it. My body hair grows in allot slower. I can go a week or two before I need to reshave my legs. My face I can go two days before I need a shave, whereas before I needed to shave twice a day to control that hideous shadow. Also the thickness of the individual hairs and the density of hair have substantially reduced. My hair is much more femme than before.
I call spearmint tea my “HRTea”. Spearmint has medicinal properties beyond hair reduction it treats fever, flu, cold or to calm nervous stomach.
The way I like to do it is to make a quart of strong spearmint and black tea in the morning. I drink half and save half for latter in the day as it is best like many medications to do more than one dose daily. Spreading it out 12 hours apart would work best but as I like to add regular tea to my brew for flavor I don’t drink it to late in the evening due to the caffeine.

Here is the recipe I use:

I boil a quart of water after it boils reduce the heat to simmer and throw in about 1/6-1/4 of an ounce of tea to the water (a moderate handful). Add a teaspoon of lemon and a small pinch of salt. (the lemon adds acidity to the water and assists the chemicals to release from the plant material) For flavor you can also add a couple of normal tea bags. Cover and let sit for 15 minutes. The brew needs to steep for at least 15 minutes, as this is how long it takes for the majority of the anti androgen to release from the plant material. Then strain. Sugar and lemon make it yummy.

Friday, June 10, 2011

Silenced and erased.

I just hate it when I make a well thought out counter point to another bloggers post and they refuse to publish it. Especially if I have taken care to be respectable and not use ad homenem attacks and straw man arguments I should not be censored. If I am so wrong as to be censored then perhaps I am right even in the mind of the censor and as such the censor is somehow placed in peril.
I hate it when people moderate comments on their bloggs. They make it look like the world agrees with them without any dissent. They seek to look like purvey ours of sacred dogma and text it seems to me.

Why is it that some people are so insecure in their 'unassailable' opinions that they can not even stand a taste of scrutiny? If your opinions are so rock solid, use them to soundly trounce me for having the audacity to question you on such a lofty subject.

We are living in a time when people will only listen to those who parrot what they believe. Critical thought and scrutiny of that which is supposedly sacred is verboten.

This is a shame. No idea or opinion should be free of scrutiny or in depth analysis.

I hate it when people seek to silence and erase those who do not agree with them.

This space I leave free to anyone to say whatever. As long as you are not coming here and posting national secrets publicly, I could give 2 shits what you say. I believe that those who disagree with me deserve their say.
Wish I got the same respect.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

I can't win.

One of the trans support sites I frequent has been loosing members due to the transgender/transsexual word war.
I am not without blame. I have been more than willing to dive into the fray and partake of the gift of battle. (a definate hold over from my man indoctrination) I have opinions and I feel that I should have the right to shoot off my mouth just as much as the average person.
However,it seems that even when I keep it civil those who are not part of the conflict are getting emotionaly hurt and taking great offence to the fact that there is a fight going on in there midst.

I can not be part of this fight anymore. At least for now. I am mainly involved in the trans comunity to help those girls who I conect with and help them come too terms with their gender. Help them transition. I didn't become involved with the trans comunity to be political. This has happened but it was not my original purpose. My main purpose was at first too just survive. I have done that and I stayed in the comunity to pay it forward.

I can't assist anyone transition if I am caught up in a semantics war that is driving those who are more easily hurt away from the comunity I wish too serve.